|Foot release lever from sewing machine, 1950-60's broach and butterfly. I wanted to create the picture of a butterfly landing on a flower in a field of them.....|
One of my Sisters is in the process of buying a house. Naturally I helped her look for one... which in hindsight was a mistake, because now I keep looking at a new house for ME and that's not going to happen.
My other Sister is hard at work renovating her house and creating a new bedroom and craft room for herself. I get pictures almost daily of the progress.
It makes me salivate, the idea of getting some work done on my house, assuming I just can't get another house.
When Jerry and I moved here, we were like this is our forever house. We were never ever gonna move.
Now Jerry just has one word when the subject comes up: stairs. As in this house has too many. As much as I hate to admit it, I'm starting to have mobility issues or at least pain, and stairs are not my friend. At some point hauling stuff up and down 3 flights of stairs isn't going to work anymore.
When we bought this house, my jewelry empire fit into a couple of drawers and a couple of shoe boxes. I had no dedicated space for making stuff. The first couple of years of my obsession it fit into a rolling set of plastic drawers that fit in the closet. I would just roll it out when I wanted to work on stuff.
At some point, I had so much stuff I took up the spare bedroom, which is the smallest room in the house.
When my stuff threatened to overflow that space, we got a contractor in and remade the attic space as my studio.
I really love my house, and I love my studio.... but Jerry, darn his hide, is right. At some point going up and down all those stairs isn't going to be practical.
So I've been facing the idea that this isn't my forever house, and I've found a couple of houses on the market right now that would be just about perfect for my family and my business.
Timing isn't right right now.
And I find all of this kind-of depressing.
And I look around my house and think how the space isn't working as well... how I really want a fully functional kitchen. How I can't stand how cluttered the first floor has gotten.
The worse part of depression is how it just sort of freezes you in place.. how it sucks your ability to move to make decision or get anything done.
So the first thing I need to do, regardless if this is our forever house now or we move sometime in the future, is to make our space right now better.
I hate housework, but it's time to put my big girl panties one and just get it done.
So get it cleaned up, get the little things that are bugging me fixed (the things I can get done via a handyman for just a few bucks. The kitchen is 2 big a fix.. but the hole in my studio? that's doable )
We need to get rid of the graveyard of dead mechanicals, formally known as my living room. I want my living room back. We have a bunch of empty sewing machine tables right now.. we have room and use for maybe 4? and have like 10.
The cats have completely destroyed the love-seat. Maybe I can find something used that won't pretzel-ize my budget?
Little baby steps. That's all I can do. But maybe if I get enough steps in I'll actually get somewhere.